Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.

Elbert Hubbard

I find this quote hilarious, partially because it’s true but also I deal with passive suicidal ideation.

Bet no one saw that coming.

Suicidal ideation is when you wish you could die but have no plans. In my case it’s more of I don’t want to exist. Living is hard.

I live with PTSD, depression, anxiety and an autoimmune disease. I’m saying this to be perfectly honest with my readers but to also explain where I’m coming from. All of these affect the way I view life. And life is difficult enough without dealing with anything extra.

Please notice I said I live with them, not that I’m a victim because I’m not. I am a survivor. I fight. I learn and some days I even conquer.

If anyone lives with a mental or physical illness, they are not victims. No, we are survivors, fighters and have so much to offer. Do not write us off.

As I say that I know that I wrote my own self off. Many times I’m my own worst enemy and I wish that I had some crazy knowledge which would help everyone dealing with shit, but I don’t.

I have my story and what I’ve learned over the years. You are welcome to learn with me cause that’s what this is going to be…a learning experience.